Feb. 9th, 2016 11:19 pm
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<marco>
[No it's not. It's about himself. He's just dying a little too much to be upfront about it.]
<GREATFLOOD>
I see. [Vaguely, anyway.]
I would note once more that I don't hold that sort of thing against who you are now, but I get the impression you need to let something off your chest anyway.
<marco>
I
I've said more than enough already.
<GREATFLOOD>
I'm hardly a therapist though so I can't blame you for that response.
As it stands- we all had something to weigh us down.
Ultimately, what we find worst about ourselves seems far less so in the eyes of the ones around us, if that whale was any indicator.
[He might be a bit bitter about that, despite the relief. It felt so...important after all.
And then it wasn't.]
<marco>
I wasn't expecting you to say that, to be honest.
[He's not sure WHAT he was expecting.]
<GREATFLOOD>
What I said in the whale or what I said now? I said a lot you know.
I do stand by every bit of it, but there's a difference between 'i didn't expect you to say you're not good at therapy' and 'i didn't expect you not to mind'.
...Just...what were you expecting, then?
[Ah no a question Marco lacks the answer for,]
<marco>
He fails to consider that the same may apply to everyone else, medical issues aside.]
Well I thought
I thought YOU might think that explained a thing or two.
And my regret over all the trouble I've caused because of it doesn't NEGATE said trouble.
Besides,
It's intel.
Enemy intel.
Right?
[oh no does THIS sound paranoid too]
<GREATFLOOD>
No, Marco.
It isn't.
Obviously what we do in the present is affected by what we do in the past, in more ways than one. I'm certainly not an idiot on that regard- I've come to terms with things there at least.
Did you know I nearly bombed the entire planet once? It was stupid. All it would have taken is a slightly different decision, and I would have been just spiteful enough to do it after all.
...This isn't about that, obviously, but the point is what we did years ago isn't who we are now.
And obviously you were carrying that for longer than you deserved to be.
This isn't intel.
And anyone who considers this sort of thing 'intel' against you is frankly pathetic, using nothing but emotional blackmail over an old incident to do what they want.
...As for negation...no, obviously regret doesn't negate anything. Actions negate. And even then you can't actually negate and erase what's been done or even considered in the past.
The important thing is that your regret means you can learn from it. And probably have, for that matter.
<marco>
Is "humbling" the word he's looking for? It doesn't feel quite right. Either way, he's embarrassed... albeit it's not exactly the same type of embarrassment he felt before he started this conversation.]
Sorry.
I assumed...
Well, never mind that.
Thank you for understanding.
<GREATFLOOD>
I suppose I can't blame you for assuming, can I.
We haven't really kept in contact since....some time ago, have we?
...
I'd like to thank you for the same, or at least similar.
Or at least, I didn't think you heard my own tale in there only to hold it against. If you heard it, I suppose.
<marco>
No, no.
It's like you said. The past is the past.
<GREATFLOOD>
...
I wish you well, Marco.
<marco>
You too.
[WOW THAT WENT A LOT BETTER THAN HE WAS EXPECTING]