[Just a pair of emotionally compromised and stunted morons yep.]
I didn't want to know what he would do when cornered. I still don't, honestly.
I
I know it isn't any excuse.
But it was all I could think. If that program was AM in a good mood, what would a desperate, cornered AM do? One with a spotlight on him? Not only to me. But to others.
The people around me. The people I knew, I...
He thought the Haze was made to target him.
I didn't want him to make them a target because of that.
It isn't about death. It's hard enough to kill me as it is.
There are greater things to fear than death. You said it yourself. What you've done to people who betrayed you. That's more than death, isn't it?
It's about the trip there, and making it a long one.
...
I should have had more faith that everyone could avoid that if they wanted. Myself included.
[But one could say, after all...he's nothing but a 'scardey cat.']
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Date: 2018-12-23 11:49 pm (UTC)I didn't want to know what he would do when cornered. I still don't, honestly.
I
I know it isn't any excuse.
But it was all I could think. If that program was AM in a good mood, what would a desperate, cornered AM do? One with a spotlight on him? Not only to me. But to others.
The people around me. The people I knew, I...
He thought the Haze was made to target him.
I didn't want him to make them a target because of that.
It isn't about death. It's hard enough to kill me as it is.
There are greater things to fear than death. You said it yourself. What you've done to people who betrayed you. That's more than death, isn't it?
It's about the trip there, and making it a long one.
...
I should have had more faith that everyone could avoid that if they wanted. Myself included.
[But one could say, after all...he's nothing but a 'scardey cat.']